life sucks.

Ah, well okay my life sucks major ass right now, Logan (a guy i went out with in october i think) well he's one of my extremly good friends && he asked me out again, i said no because a)i don't want it to ruin our friendship & b) i'm pretty much in love with brandon. so now he hates me and won't talk to me at all, so today at school i told him i'd go out with him. now brandon wont talk to me, i'm just trying to make everyone happy and it's not working out to well. i'm in love with brandon (well i think, i've never been in love before.) but Logan is one of my best friends i could ever have and i don't want to lose him, ever. i dont know what i should do. i dont wan to lose either and it seems like either way i'm going to lose one of them. Oh yeah and to add on to my crappy life as of this moment, one of my other best friends apparently thinks that i've been avoiding her so she's telling everyone else to ask me if i'm mad at her and she wont ask me herself. i like friends who can speak there mind and dont care what other people think of them, and she's just not one of them. she's kinda mean to people too, she says one of my other friends is fat, she's fatter then her. wow, i'm just really pissed right now, and just want everything to be like it used to be. i miss the old days. :(

P.S.- i like this shade of purple, it's fabulous. :)